I feel really stupid. I also struggle to accept that this needs to happen. I lost my source of income this year in January and in a matter of 6 months blew through all of my savings trying to pay bills and survinve. in August my neighbor allowed me to stay on his futon after my lease ended so I could figure out what’s next. after about two weeks he started coming on to me and we started sleeping together. I thought a budding romance was happening. but after two months of this, as my last week in the apartment approaching and I prepared to move, he started pulling away and creating distance. no breakup or conversation was ever had. he introduced me to all his friends. we even slept together the night before I moved out. we are now in no contact after another avoidant shut down. I couldn’t take anymore push and pull dynamic and being gaslit about his use of the silent treatment to inflict pain. I’m traumatized and confused. and I’m in so much pain. I simultaneously miss and love this person, but also am so crushed and objectified by his behavior. I wish this never happened and I could turn back time and say no the first time